Sunday, October 18, 2009

Dreams and Reality


There are people who dream, plan, work and achieve.

There are people who dream, plan, work and never achieve, yet who manage to grow and evolve in the process of following that dream.

There are people who dream and do nothing. They talk a lot and every now and then refer to those dreams...but they remain stagnant. Their feet are so stuck in the earth that lifting a toe becomes painful- unless they have someone to hold their hand and guide them...

Then, there are those people who discover their child is deaf at four months of age and find that they must modify the dreams they once had given the new situation. I had a family call me this morning...very touching moment after a hellish morning in the house. Every time I'm about to go off the deep end for something so stupid, I receive a phone call from another family that snaps me back into action. Beautiful parents who want the best for their child, struggling through a series of emotions and putting them on the back burner to gather as much information as possible as quickly as possible. I told them they are so lucky to have found out so soon and that they have time to breathe and to become informed. The mom told me she saw various videos of Jordan and that they helped her find some peace in this situation...love that...

It's fall here in Tuscany and the sun tends to hide behind the clouds a little too often for my wants and needs. The faces of the people start to reflect that gray light and they smile so much less often. Kind of like hibernation in motion. When I feel myself becoming that shade of gray, I try to rebel, but it is so damn oppressive.

Yesterday evening, Jordan went to the amusement park with his friend Simone...ALONE! I dropped them off, said a prayer, and returned at 7 to pick them up. They were exactly where they needed to be at 7 on the dot...because they had run out of money:=) They talked the entire ride home, excited, because for the first time, they were both on their own with all the other adolescents- kind of like going to the mall to hang out without your parents for the first time. I asked Jordan if he was careful with his processor on the rides and he said yes. (He slept at his friend's house last night and when I walked in an hour ago to pick him up, my friend said, "Jordan, confess!" Apparently, Jordan's processor fell off while they were on the BUMPER CARS and by miracle was not smashed and destroyed. I kicked him in the butt, and thanked God)

Anyway, Jordan's growing up and doing typical teenage stuff..warms a Mamma's heart.

Since Jordan went to the amusement park yesterday, I took Sofia to the movies today. We saw FAME!!!! I am reborn. I'm quitting my job, returning to the USA and joining a School for the Arts to become a famous singer. Ok, not happening, but I am currently looking around town to see if anyplace has karaoke. You know, the film was gray. The school, gray...just like the atmosphere where I live. But there was a major difference.

The characters were brilliant and the spirit of the film...rainbow. This place lacks spirit and passion. If you have new ideas, initiative and exuberance...they fear you and try to crush you. This is the fundamental difference between Italy and the USA- spirit.


Now, when I heard this song during the movie, I had this bizarre emotional reaction as if this song was part of a traumatic moment from my past. I don't remember which traumatic moment, but I believe I must have found it motivational. Maybe it's the title- "On My Own"- highly appropriate given the circumstances.

In any case, I loved the movie, the spirit of the movie, and I loved that I held Sofia's hand the entire time. I snuck cuddles and kisses every now and then as I watched her little six year old eyes dreaming of becoming a star...
And as we well know...anything is possible.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi Jodi....strange that I've been lurking your site after a long hiatus but anyway...here it goes. After reading the first comments you wrote regarding parents that contacted you after discovering their child is deaf at 4 months. Glad that they are gathering information and getting some from you. I can't help but wonder if you also told them things that they could do while gathering information like---learning sign language to communicate. Every minute, every day of the child's life is lost to learning communication while parents seek for the right thing to do. I must say that it does pain me to see parents not do anything...the least they could do is learn sign language and begin communicating right away. There are so many great baby sign videos available and it does not take much for parents to learn. Let alone hearing parents doing this for their hearing babies...COMMUNICATING before they begin to walk & talk.
Anyway...HAPPY SUNDAY and hope you'll find fame some how, some where, some way. ;-)

Cheers,
Sharon

Debbie said...

You know, I was reading this and it occurred to me that when we were visiting Grossetto in High School, the big thing while we were there, is that "Flashdance" was on TV for the 1st time. It was in Italian and I didn't understand a thing.

I'm so glad you've been able to steal yourself moments of bliss. You still have your marvelous humor about you too! It takes a really special person to see the rainbows, Jodi.

I used to use "Out Here On My Own" as an audition song. I love it too!

Jodi Cutler Del Dottore said...

Sharon...your voice of reason is always thought-provoking..glad you're here.

Debbie- I hope Amelia's doing okay-please give her kisses from me. And the next time I see you...I will expect the live version Ross-style! I'm coming in for Thanksgiving so start practicing:)))))

Anonymous said...

Jodi....
and......do you share that perspective (encouraging parents to learn signs to communicate from the get go while exploring)?? Love to know your viewpoints.

Cheers + hugs...
Sharon

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